Ah I see. I guess I only really feel that way when I'm having down days?? Idk I guess that would be kind of a nice way to live though in certain circumstances bc like then I wouldn't really care about anything around me and I'd finally be able to get a break lmao
My bae is an internet bae, has been for like 4 years... so when I'm not on a PC, I just vegetate and wait for the point in time where nothing exists but an even and equal distribution of energy in the universe. Le sigh.
For stuff to exist and reactions and bl;ah to happen, there has to be an imbalance of energy and movement/change of energy. For example, the sun hold A LOT of energy, but is transmuting hydrogen into helium and losing it bit converting it into light/heat (photons/infrared radiation/UV light). Eventually, it'll implode and blah and no more sun energy. It's the same for everything. If all areas of the universe have equal energy, nothing lives, nothing happens. It's weird.
But yeah the internet is my life, without it i'm nothing :c